I often feel that I don’t belong
In the middle of a crowd
Amongst strangers with painted smiles
While I sit alone, uncertain and so sure
That they’re laughing at me
Amongst faces that I’ve known for years
And even so, I cannot speak
It’s not that I don’t want to be here with you
It’s that I want to crawl back inside myself
Believe me, I want to talk with you
To interact, be present in the present moment
Most of the time, I can do it
But when I cannot find it in me to stay
Please, understand
That I’m conversing with the rabbit inside
Trying to reassure her that there’s no need to scurry away